And he said to them, “Pay attention to what you hear: with the measure you use, it will be measured to you, and still more will be added to you.”- Mark 4:24
A few weeks ago. Valentine’s Day to be exact. I was walking out to my car when my heart heard… “Look in the yellow bin.” I opened my car door, put my purse on the seat, and then walking into the garage I happened to see my yellow bin on the shelf. Not knowing what to do next I asked, “Now what?”
My heart then heard… “Read, My Utmost For His Highest!”
My Utmost For His Highest is a daily devotional book that was written by, Oswald Chambers, and first published in 1935. This book was given to me as a Christmas gift in 2000, by a woman I loved very much and the inscription shared… “Never read ahead!” For nearly 15 years I read that book faithfully. Each day I would open to read what God had to say through Chambers, but then last year, on Valentine’s Day… I put the book in my yellow bin and it was there where it would stay!
A year ago Valentine’s Day, was a very hard day. Actually the whole year was difficult. I went through a divorce. I moved. My daughter had a baby whom was born with complications. I opened a store. My youngest daughter moved to Colorado. My granddaughter was hospitalized. My list of adversities was long and for some reason my heart didn’t want to read what Oswald Chambers had to say, so I placed him in my yellow bin. I remember thinking… I need a break from the wisdom of others so I can find my way back to “my” appointments with God!
Funny how the one thing I wanted a break from I seemed to miss.
As I was holding the book I happened to notice that there was something sticking through the pages, so I turned to the page and found a blue envelope with the inscription that read: Gina, don’t open ’til 2.14.16.
As I pulled the envelope out of the book that is when I noticed where the year before I had written at the top of the page, “A year from today in 2016 I will be where God put me!”
As I looked at the book it seemed that once in 2011 I needed a fresh start and last year my heart needed another year to start again.
Then I opened the envelop and saw that I had purchased myself a card which read:
Then opening the card I read a note that I had written to myself last year…
For the past few weeks I’ve been thinking about where I was a year ago Valentine’s Day and where I am now, and I must admit that with everything that transpired this past year it was nice to see that God put it on my heart to write myself a message showing me that it’s true…
Within the message written by Oswald, dated: February 14, there’s a paragraph which reads: When you are in the dark, listen, and God will give you a very precious message for someone else once you are back in the light.
Yes, it took me exactly one year to find my way from the darkness of adversities to the calmness of the light, and where Oswald wrote that I will give a precious message to someone else, he was actually talking about me. I am someone else now. I’m not the same woman who sat in darkness, but I am now the woman who is sitting in the light and I love the card, because it was a grand reminder that…
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
Onward to “dreaming” with “purpose” and making each of my days count!